I'm...

I'm very happyAnd i love taniathats all i need to say:)

i gue...

i guess im a fuckin shithead, most of what i say upsets tania, even though everything ive ever said has never been meant to upset her. she allways wants ta stop talking to me so quickly. and she never tells me what upset her or why, for the past 4 months ive been overly depressed, i mean when i can tell she fuckin loves me im happy as hell..but it doesnt allways seem like she does. maybe its just me..ive had a fucked up life when it comes to girl friends or love..so im just more worried about the things i should know i dont have to worry about.ive never even been in love but with holly and tania.but holly was me just thinking shes fucking great.but.i allways thought id go from girl friend to girl friend untill i met her..and like really knew her. .when she told me the truth about herself. and i honestly feel like im gonna spend my life with her and be completely happy with her the whole time....yes i know i allways talk about her, but thats my fault..because of all the accidents ive been in, im kinda unable to do stuff right now..plus i dont live near jumps..or motocross tracks er any shit like that. but i also talk about her because i love her, and i talk to her like 10 hours a day. but no matter what she'll ever think..i allways tell her the truth..i never hide anything anymore....and if i make a fucking promise im gonna fuckin keep it..because of course i want her to be happy, and yes i love her. i say i love her alot....u kno why, because she got really upset with me and told me she had reason to believe i dont love her cause i never said it as much at all..so i started sayin it more. . now i just thinks shes so used to it that its like me sayin wot, but wether i say it alot or not, i love her more then any thing in my entire life:)...no matter what happend before.i do.....she is my baby.Well!, with that said...im turning into a daddie..its complicated. .kids just kick ass man.i bet u can guess what im gonna say.mhm...its a tinkermhmi love tania<3god ima fuckin dork.

Im an asshole

My lifes allways been complicated. everyone ive ever loved has turned on me or left..and i feel like thats what tanias doing. she has reason to..ive been to caught up in being worried and jealous. im not good enough for her at all..all ive ever done is upset her and make her and jesse fight. i havent lied to her for months, but ive done more then enough to make her leave. i dont want her to, but if itll make her happier. .she should. shes the only girl i can ever imagine myself loving or being with because ive been in love with her for months..and ive only gotten deeper and deeper into it. but im to worried about everything..and everytime i do wrong i change myself to make her happier with me, but it hasnt changed. i dont even know what to do. i allways ask her whats wrong and what she wants, but she never tells me.. i never do anything right and i hate myself for it. ive never had the chance to fix anything.. its allways gone before i can...which is why im so worried, we've made all these plans..and told each other how much we love one another, but the way she acts..makes it all so hard to believe. i really just want her to act more serious about us sometimes, and tell me what she wants...and whats bothering her..and what shes thinking about when it comes to us, i wanna make her as happy as possible..but i never can if she wont talk to me. i understand that shes very close with her friends and i dont care anymore..i understand that she wants to wait for us to be together..i understand everythings shes told me..and either way ill sit here and wait for the rest of my life for her, because i know that no matter how bad we fight we'll allways be more then perfect moments later, and that ill never love her any less then i do now, but i also know that i wont let us fight, because im sick of fighting with her, im sick of her being unhappy, and im sick of being an asshole. im not like this in person, but shes so far away. i cant touch her, or talk to her face to face. all i can do is trust her and be a better person untill shes with me. i wish things could be like they were before..but without the lieing and hiding things. i just want me and her to be happy.we're happy now i guess. but we dont act as loving as we used to.jesse, im sorry about making you and tania fight, the only reason i said i hated you was because all of what happend, your funny as hell and a good person to be friends with. i almost ruined what you and tania have, and im sorry. i really dont care if u hate me or not..i just wanted to apoligize.thats about it....I love you Tania.

Jes...

Jesse your the dumbest fucking dip shit ive ever known. She said all that to make ME not get angry, u stupid fuck..she protects you alot more then she does me, and she thinks better of you then me. seriously dumbass.....why do you think allll this shit happend. . .because she loves you, you fuckin prick. im getting the ass end of this entire thing. tania lies to me all the time!..and never to you.....undeserving asshole.

Subway

i am bored i am bored i am bored. tania has given me no sign of life..she is i dunno where....shes probably all high n asleep hehehe awww ::kisses her nose::. but shes a tired lady, cause she works lots n lots...and only for tips god damnit.well woo im tired. if i dont talk to tania tonight..itll be the first night we havent talked in like..........6 months. because we allways talk every night for atleast 10 hours er so. even if we're fightin.i should really try and draw some things for the art instruction school lady. Because shes back in florida even tho she wasnt supposed to be untill mid next year. so i really should draw some stuff up and get my mom to call her and get her ta come by. She saw my other drawings and thought she really needed to talk to me..so..thats probably why shes back. The only reason she didnt come by last time..was because i havent been drawing for around 4 months at the time, so it kinda faded. but ive gotten back into it so yesm...she should come by this weekend. plus..she flew from canada.itd be mean to not let heru know i really think rebecca raped me. because josh is me in every way.. he doesnt really look like me but acts like me and wants to be around me more then anyone and comes to me when hes hurt or has done somethin wrong. i dunno..maybe its because im the only one that plays with'em and doesnt smack him.I HAD CHINESE FOOD.I FINALLY HAD CHINESE FOOD AGAIN....and i feel like complete shit and never wanna eat it again.oo. i want thai food tho. aww tania, shes looves thai food.. i must eat tania now.fuck, i need to fight someone. all the anger from everythings just sittin there. HAH..ill go fight that little shit that steve knows. lol steves a pimp now..and this guys a nerdie 130 pound punk/metalhead with glasses and A.D.D..hes goin out with some 12 year old named samantha with big tits.hes actin like shes his hoe. i was laughin hard as fuck when i asked him who the fuck she was.hes like "dude shes fine as hell..and shes has big ass tits, AND....she asked me to finger her at lunch.man i rubbed her over her pants while shes was moaning n shit". i just kept laughin..but i asked him if shes serious about him. and hes all "man pssh, shes swoonin over me..i dunno how long ill keep her tho"..even tho hes never had a real girl friend hes actin all pimped out. no but steve kicks ass..im glad hes gettin girls.....he needs'em more then any body.problem is, thier all 12.lol and steves birthdays comin up..guess whos goin over there........samantha..hes all "we're gonna fuck, we're gonna fuck, we're gonna fuck".lol.the guy doesnt even have peach fuzz sproutin frum his face. well who cares..he needs it. alright im goin ta bed. im tired as fuck and tanias probly asleep.so gootbye.::nigtie tania::

HAH, thats ...

HAH, thats funny as hell. tanias homework is some interview with her "role model", and she did her little faggot ex jesse savka. thats such bullshit......she said herself its just bullshit..and that he was the only one online to interview.

Im NOT Tired

damn yo, it's 7 and im not asleep..GOD HELP ME..yo.yo yo yo::pimps it::.eh.niggers eat nuts at the zoo. i swear.ive wanted to see tanias boobies really bad for like 2 weeks. ive had lack of pleasure so kiss my ass. i dont ask her of course. Cause im respectable in 2 ways.ooooooooooooo. I knew tania would like this song man. i swear, cause i was listenin to it and ive listened to it atleast 20 times since i heard it on thursday. i know her so well that its not even funny anymo. i have poison ivy poisoning, thats frum ridin. OK...OK. im hella inspired by morbid angel now, because i havent listened to'em for a while, but now that i have. . .whoooooooooaaaa, it just completely makes me wanna go play guitar and write notes and be creative.Friday sucked, tania maybe of gotten raped, i was soooo pissed when she told me.not just at her.but because i wasnt there to start killin people.no im kidding just the guy. i was pissed at tania because she promised me she wouldnt go out at night anymore because i told her i knew somethin bad was gonna happen, so i asked her to not. . .she didnt keep her promise. its ok tho she forgot.and i cussed my parents out completey because my moms a lying fat cunt and my dads a complete crackhead.and after that i left and went outside.after a while this kid i fuckin hate came by sayin shit ta steve and me, so i ran after him with my fuckin hammer and hes like no no no no no noo.i was kidding im friends with steve..so yes i obviously wasnt in a good mood.infact a skinny ass nigger came flyin by on a street bike.so i chucked this biiig ass rock at his head...it was funny tho, because he stopped and took off his helmet.so i yelled get the fuck outta here ya stupid fuckin nigger...funny thing is...he left.im not even THAT racist at all..i just wasnt in a good mood.but anyway.TANIA WAS WEARING JESSE'S BOXERS THATS SO FUCKIN GROSS DUDE.Scott.ooo scott. big wonderful SCOTT. u know how much i hate scott. i hate him as much as i hate black people at the movies, i hate this asshole more then i can hate anyone...but tania thinks hes sooo great...and sooooo cool...and soooo funny.well i sooo wanna kill him. i wanna see his face deform under the end of my hammer. ok.ok.ok.ok....ok.im calm.we good.WE KOO, and.hes gonna go see her..which is why im gonna try and move there...well till three years from now. but yeah i cannot stand the thought of her around him.when it happens i will be soooo fucking touchy and pissed off. for some obvious reason miss tania.alright.im tired now..ive been typing for like 5 days a 2 years with 3 months in between.im just gonna go eat and go to bed with my teddy bear which i will soon give to tania, so he can kicks ernies ass.but if i dont update after i wake up..cause i aint finished ive just gotten all a sudden tired.so yeah.if i dont.today im most likely gonna be violent towards passing motorists and go jumpin.so i love you all.good mornin((i know it says seven.but i started typin at 3am))..and yes i know im boring and talk about tania alot.thats cause.IM NOT ASHAMMED LIKE SHE IS.which is why i talk about her..in a good way.grr.yeah:/ .....nighty.))20 minute's later((.OK.now im goin yall.

i don't sleep with my teddy bear

woo, my stomach hurts and my pinkies green. Whaatever. So anyway im tryin ta get an old mustang but i cant find one within florida and with the right shit in it, which is really starting to piss me the fuck off, but i dont care i'll find one.I've been sick for the past year, my dads doing crack, my moms crazy and wants to die, my dads dieing. . .i mean shit you should hear the fucker cough.tania is makin me wait of course.BUT ATLEAST SHES NOT WITH JESSE.well its ok actually.i could careless about my dad and my mom.and me and tania are actually super duper.we dont even fight no mo.WE KOO.yes i have bad typing.but i never said i cared cause i dont really care cause i never have really cared cause its stupid to care about something stupid. . .yes mamim having an obsession with 80's metal and original metal. it's probly because ive been in a really good mood lately. Because yesm i only listen to that stuff when im really fuckin cheery. . .well all that stuff about buyin stuff i think i cant mostly forget, besides the clothes.i dont have shit to wear ever. .and if we can find a place for me ta stay in california, im gonna be stayin for a long time. .so yesm i need clothing, but if tania comes shes only comin fur a week. .but thats koo, cause its right befo christmas.you kno what ive noticed, ive noticed that i talk about the sammme things.yes. .yes i do.because for tha time being i have a boring life.spike is stinky.you kno what.im gonna buy a ferret.and a snake.and then.ima let'em loose in ma house. .and see who dies first.no not really but i do want a kitty. AND a puppy.spike can hump the kitty.and the puppy can protect the kitty by humping spike.alright well ima go do alotta nothin. i'll probly sleep cause i dont feel good, so whoopi goldberg and goodnight I LOVE YOU TANIA<3<3<3<3<3<3. . . ::found his teddy bear::

i...

i cant deal with it anymore.i cant deal with knowing jesses with my fucking wife.i cant think about it.i love tania so much that it makes me wanna burst out in fuckin tears sometimes.i sit here waiting and waiting.for something im praying to god will fall into my arms.she tells me the most beautiful things i could ever hear.and i spit back in her face.im so sorry for doing it.but i am so filled with doubt.and im so scared that ill lose her to jesse.im so scared that ill lose because of myself sometimes.but im put through so much.and shes still not with me.the mans shes with was willing to leave within a moment.he was willing to give it all away without a fucking tear.and me the one who waits.who sticks through everything is left behind hoping for a future.im hoping for a future thats been drawn into my head.i am so ready for this future and will do anything to have it.and given the choice.she chose him.for the moment she says but no.she chose him.i will never leave her.i cant.shes my life and my love.i live for her.she may kill my heart but i swear to god ive never smiled so much in my entire life.i wish she could see how much i love her.i wish i could prove it to her.or do whatever i can to end her bullshit of a relationship.with this so called friend of hers.i am so ready to give my life for her.to do everything above and beyond my fucking power to make her happy.i will move across the world and eat dead people if she needed me too.but if only she would tell me what she wants.and whats wrong.i beg of her and still i get nothing.i pour my heart onto her and she washs it off.she doesnt ever take us seriously.which is why we're leaving eachother.what ive feared most in my life.i cant let her go.and i cant let us drift apart.ive tried so hard to fix it.but shes not willing to see what happens.and from now on.its done.i will stay and wait for her to fall to me.i cant stand the stress but ill last threw every single heart breaking minute of it.as long as in the end im with her.my wife and my love.

fuckin...

fuckin hell.i wrecked my bike today.i landed flat on my shoulder and my neck.tanias gonna fuckin hate me.cause i think i broke my collar bone and maybe pulled a muscle in my neck.and...hurt my kidney.so i might be going to tha hospital tonight.i dunno.if tha pain gets worse i will.but yes im hurt.i landed like that from 12 feet high.so im obviously gonna have a great birthday on sunday.whoopi.eh.im goin.DONT BE MAD TANIA I DIDNT MEAN TO.IM NOT EVEN GONNA RIDE FOR AWHILE.

im stupid

i have the best future wife in tha world.THEE BEST.whoopi doo flapy wapi.my nephew called me stupid today.cause im broke from my bike wreck.and i wouldnt do nuttin.so he called me stupid.even tho it was more like soupid.id say more.but im in alotta pain.so bye bye bye bye bye.

oooo.fu...

oooo.fuckin whoopi goldberg.i have a live journal.thanks ta tanias fine ass.yes mam::humps tania::.yaaaay

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x. name = Nickx. age = i am almost this many 11111111111111111 x. piercing = none.x. tattoos = ooo.not yetx. height = 6'0x. shoe size = 12x. hair color = dark brownx. eye color= Green or hazel.i dunno.greenishx. Hair length = shoulders.x. siblings = 2 big assholes named billy(22) and chris(24) x. pets = Spike ma dogx. movie you rented = i dunno itsa war movie.ma mom got itx. movie you bought = Detroit rock city(DVD)x. song you listened to = Down - Ghosts along the mississippi.x. song that was stuck in your head = uh.ludacris.moo bitch get out tha way.I FUCKIN HATE THAT SONG.x. song you've downloaded = Judas priest - Between the hammer and the anvil.x. cd you listened to = Gore Obsessed - Cannibal Corpsex. person you've called = No one.But i talk to tania 12 hours a night(seriously tho).x. person that called you = ooooo.FUCK YEAH.tania....and steve.x. tv show you've watched = uranium and extreme rockx. person you were thinking of = Hmm.taniax. you have a bf or gf = last question i need to hearx. you have a crush on someone = not really a crush.x. you wish you could live somewhere else = YES.and no.(but i wish someone would hurry up)x. you think about suicide = i think three timesx. you believe in online dating = whatever floats ur 2x4x. others find you attractive = uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.no.NOT YET ANYWAY.no ok im jokingx. you want more piercings = yup.x. you want more tattoos = hells yes x. you drink = nooope.im da good one(used to)x. you do drugs = not no mo.thier bad fo youx. you smoke = not no mo.thier bad fo youx. you like cleaning = sometimes.only for tanias.x. you like roller coasters = FUCK YEAH::makes a whooshie sound::x. you write in cursive or print = print x. you carry a donor card = i dunno.ask taniaagainst or for....x. long distance relationships = fur.but my love person wants me to wait.so kindax. using someone = Hell no.ive been used.its fucked up.FUCK ALL YOU NIGGERS.x. suicide = as long as tania doesnt do itx. killing people = wooo.fun stuff.ima good plannerx. killing steve = dude.hes my friend.ASSHOLE.x. teenage smoking = yes.but as long as ur not a weak minded fuck.x. doing/trying drugs = yesirx. premarital sex = i must.hehehehhe. . . . HAH.x. driving drunk = its fun blind folded at nightx. gay/lesbian relationships = lesbians sure.but.well wait.my brother.yeah.im for it.x. soap operas = noooooooooofavorite... (at the moment)x. food = oreos!.candy.and um.i dunno.x. song = Down - Ghosts along the mississippix. thing to talk about = music.life.my fuckin weird familyx. sports = Drag racing,Off road racing,Rock crawling,trials and down hill moutain bike racingx. clothes = i need sum..x. movies = Detroit Rock Cityx. band = Down.x. holiday = THIS christmas.and.my birthday.but not this one.x. cars = oo.78 trans am bandit edition.gto's.old mustangs.old fords.just old cars.my lord.oo.AHH.i wish i had moneyhave you... x. ever cried over a girl = i.uh.leave me alone.x. ever cried over a boy = .hells no.(loves chris)HAH.hes my brother you sick fuck.x. ever lied to someone = loong time ago.i dont lie anymorex. ever been in a fist fight = holy shit yeahx. ever been arrested = almost. nooope.i out smarted'em.i plan my crimes well. what... x. shampoo do you use = . . . .um.its pink.and it smells like a frootx. shoes do you wear = Boots and dc's.x. are you scared of = Uh.butch dykesnumber... x. of times I have been in love? = honestly.twice.but i fucked up with holly.but im glad i did cause of tania.x. of times I have had my heart broken? = all the timex. of hearts I have broken? = Uh.none.no ones ever loved me enough.sep taniax. of boys I have kissed? = lol.i think my dad once.i used to kiss my brother.but i think its weirdx. of girls I have kissed? = A large total of 4(sees a tornado forming)really tho.look at the weather for this day in florida.its coverd in black clouds.x. of men I've slept with? = billy once.he tried to smother me(with a pillow)x. of girls I've slept with? = i had my mean ass teasy friend amy sleep in my lap once in tha gym.x. of continents I have lived in? = floridas a weiner.x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 1x. of cd's that I own? like 15.im poor.x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = once.from my car accident.it was like 2 words long.even tho it was bad as hell.x. of scars on my body? = bout 15x. of things in my past that I regret? = staying in florida.and quiting racing.

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Aw fuck.i forgot to write more CRAP,oooooooooooo.tanias breakin up with jesse.cause.she is in love with me.and were gonna get married.so what the fucks the point of being with jesse.II dunno.ey.the dude kicks ass.but.me and tania have made plans.and they never got changed.she didnt even get with jesse cause she loves him like that ya know.but yeah.everything stayed the same.sep.we werent together.thats it.but.we're gonna be.AND.when she comes here in december.we be gettin married yall.maan.i wish it was december.cause TANIAS COMIN.and...its hotter then a niggers asshole at the moment.u walk outside.and have a fuckin heat stroke.u know what.i like music.music is fun..half my life is spent listening to music.mostly cannibal corpse.and down.and rammstien.and meshuggah.and pantera. and judas priest. and tool..but see.i hate rap.the hate i have for rap is the kinda hate that adolf would have for master p.EY.but im not..um.thaat racist.cause...i like sevendust.it just really depends on the people.LIKE RAPPERS.stupid fuckheads.the only good rapper i could ever speak of is marshal mathers and tu pac.thier lyrics meant stuff.BUT I DONT LIKE RAP.so it doesnt matter.i dunno.i just think raps annoying and talentless bullshit dripping from some asshole rappers mouth.i dunno.i. . . . .kinda like marshal.cause.um.hes pretty violent.and tu pac.uhh.has nice lyrics.but i aint sayin no mo.well fuck dat.I WANNA RACE BOATS.oooo thier fuun.cause u never know when ur gonna hit some fucked up wave and go boom and splash.so.its crazy.u could be goin 150 and just all a sudden flip 34989863798 billion times.its koo.plus.u can jump'em.cant jump cars on tha road.cause roads dont have waves ooooo.thats why boats are koo.well.im not racin boats.but i do like music.and i love tania.im so super right now i could just go hug a pillow and cry like a little girl whos sad cause she has no boobies.sep.ID BE HAPPY.... . . . . . as fuck.i go

What the ...

What the fuck.i click on Write stuff.AND IM TRYING TO FUCKING TYPE STUFF,these people are fucking confusing.jesus.WELL.my hand hurts.probably because i let steve punch me in tha knuckles as many times as he wants with his boney ass hands.cause i said it doesnt hurt.but fuck.the guy................is like....3486768% bone.my hands like black.buuut I dont care.maan.black girls are fuckin sick.its like fuckin a pile of mud.and.MY brother.ye old nazi.fucked one.dudes sick.well YAY for his wigger ass.cause i give no shits.he just kinda felt like sharin that with me today.well ok.7 months ago.BUT ITS STILL FUCKIN SICK.but ok.me and tania are super.ok no.we're....ok.BUT.we're gonna be good.everything will be over soon.and things will be super.i think i wanna start bare knuckle fightin.cause damn.i can punch shit hard.and it doesnt really hurt..and ive only broken my hand 5 times.no O lord.O LORD.i need money.cause i need boots.and clothes.and speakers.and room shit.and a CAR.......lets put it this way.i have a MAXED OUT AMAZING GRAND TOTAL OF........a dollar.NOW HOW THE FUCK DO I PAY FOR ALL THAT WITH THAT.in large payments of a cent.well.i dont think that'll work.so.FUCK n/m.WAIT.tania burnt her lips.::is talking to tania::.HAH.her gloss is gold.SHE SAID ITS TRUTH.BUT ITS GOLD.IM SAMART.wait.sart.smart.o.........................nevermind shit.BAND.need lyrics.i have to write for fucks sake.i have like a total of 8 usable songs.well.ooooooo well.ill just be koo.WELL.you know what.i must go.i will write.TYPE.the fuckin rest ina fuckin fuckin minute ya fuck.FUCK.

Tanias thing for me

******OPINIONS******Am i cute?: yes :)Am i hot?: :creams: yes!Am i sweet?: extremely :)Am i crazy?: you crazy mofo!Am i lovable?: very much so!Am i funny?: bro you crack me upAm i annoying?: at times :)Am i psycho?: eh yes.Am i daring?: lol i guess so you wacked out hoeAm i a good person?: too much at times :/******WOULD YOU....******Hug me?: FOREVERMiss me if i was gone?: you are gone...Listen to my problems?: for daysHug me if i cried?: for hoursBe a good friend?: the best******WOULD YOU... (Opposite Sex Only)******Ever go out with me?: haha hells yea.If you already have would u do it again?: yes siry pokie bunnyKiss me ((Really))?: all the time <3Marry me if u could?: im going to hoe.Ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?: probably. lol******HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME??******theese are tufffffff.....When's my birthday?: august 25thHow old am I?: 17What school do I go to?: you dont go to schoolDo i have any siblings ~> names??: billy(william) and chris.Who is my most current ex?: me :)Who is my best friend?: steve and me :)Who am i crushing on/dating?: me :)Favorite color?: black and redLucky number?: eh fuck you. lolWhat is my worst subject?: in school? math i think.Best subject?: english.Favorite animal?: snakes, gators, doggies, and cats. i tink. TURTLESFavorite sport?: fuck you buddy. no im kidding. your riding.Favorite TV show: eh too many.Favorite song/songs?: uh any cannibal corpse, or peral jam, er stuff.Favorite music group?: pearl jam, tool, cannibal corpse, morbid angel, shall i go on?*****Who Am I******What TV star do i most remind u of?: jack black! hahahaWhat song would u dedicate to me?: i knew i loved you - savage gardenWhat famous person do I most resemble?: uh... jack black??*****If You Could...******Give me a new name it would be? why?: brian, cause its a skinhead nameHook me up with someone(real) who would it be? why?: me cause you rock and i must have you :)Do one thing with me it would be? why?: marry you cause you promised!Drop me one piece of advice it would be?: fuck people.******Just A Few Questions******What do u love about me?: everythingWhat do u hate about me (seriously)?: you get annoying.What is my best quality?: everything.IF u could change one thing about me it would be?: nothing. maybe your self esteem. or your sensitivity a little bit. not too much cause sensitive boys are a big plus!What is your honest opinion about me?: your perfect

i don't sleep with my teddy bear

woo, my stomach hurts and my pinkies green. Whaatever. So anyway im tryin ta get an old mustang but i cant find one within florida and with the right shit in it, which is really starting to piss me the fuck off, but i dont care i'll find one.I've been sick for the past year, my dads doing crack, my moms crazy and wants to die, my dads dieing. . .i mean shit you should hear the fucker cough.tania is makin me wait of course.BUT ATLEAST SHES NOT WITH JESSE.well its ok actually.i could careless about my dad and my mom.and me and tania are actually super duper.we dont even fight no mo.WE KOO.yes i have bad typing.but i never said i cared cause i dont really care cause i never have really cared cause its stupid to care about something stupid. . .yes mamim having an obsession with 80's metal and original metal. it's probly because ive been in a really good mood lately. Because yesm i only listen to that stuff when im really fuckin cheery. . .well all that stuff about buyin stuff i think i cant mostly forget, besides the clothes.i dont have shit to wear ever. .and if we can find a place for me ta stay in california, im gonna be stayin for a long time. .so yesm i need clothing, but if tania comes shes only comin fur a week. .but thats koo, cause its right befo christmas.you kno what ive noticed, ive noticed that i talk about the sammme things.yes. .yes i do.because for tha time being i have a boring life.spike is stinky.you kno what.im gonna buy a ferret.and a snake.and then.ima let'em loose in ma house. .and see who dies first.no not really but i do want a kitty. AND a puppy.spike can hump the kitty.and the puppy can protect the kitty by humping spike.alright well ima go do alotta nothin. i'll probly sleep cause i dont feel good, so whoopi goldberg and goodnight I LOVE YOU TANIA<3<3<3<3<3<3. . . ::found his teddy bear::

oh ma...

oh man.im all frustrated..tanias coming in four months and ive got lotsa stuff to do and buy..And.i need to get a job.because even tho selling my truck will pay for like 99 percent of it i still need to have money.i mean i kno she doesnt wanna do nothing but be with me.but my mom doesnt have a job anymore.so shes home everyday.so..we are gonna end up going somewhere.so..i need money..which is why job is a good word..i mean the way it is now.its like.hmmmm.uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.what is there ta do.ummmmmmmmm.i dunno.umm.no.......hm.Nothing.and i dont want it to be like that with her here.so.im gonna have alot ta do.even if its just a buncha movies n stuff.but im gonna make my room unleavable.like ooooooooo.ur room kicks ass.lets just stay in here.oooooooooo.::is tania::......................::is now nick::so yeah.i mean im not gonna have a fridge err anything..cause.....IM NOT RICH...yeah.everythings been worked out...by everything i mean the cost of it all...and a fridge-o-rater wasnt included.cause ok.theres the speakers and the receiver n stuff...well i want that..cause all i have is a nigger rigged shit hole of a system.....that i put together.and theres the um.um...computer.which is something i want to.cause this computer is such a wonderful peice of shit.and then the rest is just little stuff.im gonna start putting effort into the band.because i know ive got pretty damn good taste in music.so im pretty damn kinda somewhat sure that ill make good ass music.the way i want my music to sound is like a mix between OLD metallica/pantera/down.basicly like bad ass metal..because thats the kind of music i like.those are three of my favorite bands.problem is.im not that great of a guitar player.but im really good with samples and turntables.ANYWAY.thats the thing.i need to get better at guitar.so.im gonna put a shit load of effort into that.i know ill be able to learn.because i can play.i just cant play with all four fingers...and i need to learn how ta read notes.after that me and steve can start lookin fur members n shit.you know whos annoying.drunk people.OHH YEA.my moms friends over here all drunk and loud..She's annoying as fuck.........fuckin drunk people.we should go let her loose on the main highway.itd be like a reality/gambling show called."See how long YOUR drunk will last".peopled be watchin while them drunks are bobbin and weavin till one finally gets completely splatterd all over a semi's grille.ooooooooooooooooo.pretty gross.BUT ANYWAY.today.i woked up...and layed in bed till that nasty drunk skank left.which was only like....an hour ago.eh.GAD DAMNIT...josh made me sick.well im gonna go play with gators.

I'm jiggie. Yes...

I'm jiggie. Yes. Aren't I jiggie Nick???? Yes. Yes I am! I'm hungry. HI JENNY. Yes Jenny is here. Yes she is. Yes. How many times did I say "yes." Jenny says, and I quote "I'm so cool cause I'm on a CD cover and You would be happy if you were on a CD cover. I can make a fake band and put you on the CD cover, Tania!" Yes that is the cool Jenny on CD covers. RAD! ::picks nicks nose:: ::looks at it for a while:: ::stares:: ::sees a hair:: wowie! haha. Okie. I <3 you! BYE

today ...

today was fun.i didnt do anything,but it was fun.well for one,my brother chris and his boy friend mikes here.and chris is the funniest fuckin person youd ever kno.but we had a party so everyone could see chris.cause hes only here for 2 weeks.yeah i didnt even do anything.i just sat around staring at everyone.SO EXCITING.well.i was just sittin in the chair.and basicly all my aunts and my female cousins walked up to me all u look so much skinnier.i was just like uhhh............no.doesnt matter tho.they were pretty dead set on me being thinner so i just said thanks.u too.yesterday when chris and mike first got here i was TRYING to sleep.but my fuckin mom kept beating on my damn door.which im getting dead bolted.SO I CAN FUCKIN SLEEP WITHOUT PEOPLE BREAKING IN....god damnit.DICKHEADS man.but i was sleeping untill chris finally broke into my room and starting makin fun of me and woke me up.so i got up and took a shower...and after waiting 9 years for billy to wake up we finally went to dinner at cracker barrel.which is like a redneck country restgraunt.and after that.i went with billy and rebecca to go see goldmember.and on the way billys like.you know i smoke weed right.im like dude.ur the one that got my ass smokin weed in the first place u dumbshit...and hes all.........................................oh yeah.then hes like.well.then you wont mind if i smoke a little weed eh.and im like neh.so he takes out this little pipe.and rebeccas all NICk.you do not smoke weed.im like.yeah.well i did.but i stopped.and rebecca.i already told you i did like.2 years ago.retard.so he lights it.and its reaally strong weed...and he basicly hot boxed his wiggerd out blazer at somewhere around 90 mph....uh huh....so i got really high.well a little.ok no.more.i think.wait.was i.yeah.i know i was................yeah.i was...YEAh.ok but we got there and theres like 9 seats left in the damn theater cause there were already like 9000 people there.so we watched the movie.and me.HAH.i didnt stop laughing once.i went completely insane..and everyone was getting really pissed off.so i kept covering my mouth and stopping...but i kept bursting out laughing.OMG that movie was damn funny.woooo...so we left and they dropped me off here.and i went and sat down in the leather recliner.and holy shit.i was gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.so i feel asleep.and i had a damn good sleep.woo.im tellin you.but yeaah.i woke up..and it was gone.so then tania called and i talked to her for 10 hours.and fell asleep and did today.so hopefully she'll be callin soon.cause.the computers boring..and shes fun.. Me and tania.well.no me and tania.but im koo.cause we're best friends.cause.pretty much..no matter what happens,we'll allways be best friends.BUT.the future holds wonderful theengs my friieend::is a haabeeb::.no ok im PURE AMERICAN BITCH.no ok.im alil indian.BUT I SWEAR...im not chinese. The band.nope no band,never was.but me and steve are trying.WE'RE TRYING. to get some peoples.(drummer,other guitarist,tania(synth)).i know.metal band.synth.just member.SLIPKNOT..but i need to get better at guitar first.and hopefully we could get peter on vocals.lol.hes to greasy. neh.ive got a better voice anyway..and ive got many levels to my voice.so its good.FUCK.i wish chris woulda brung his dogs man.them fuckers are fun.so.LATER cash money homies g.

My song for cyrus.CAUSE I HATE HIM

Blood Drenched Execution.Carnage inspired by hatred and evil.Fatalities the final solution.Feel thefucking pain As the screwdriver repeatedlylands in yourface.Gouges and hacks at the man of disgrace.Tearing yourflesh withrage I've been blessed.Chopped off the tongue that told the lies.I spit on him and laugh while he dies.Lyingthere helpless I throw bricks at your head.Starving for violence andnow I'm feeding.Bleeding.Slicing through the flesh A knife stuck inyour neck,Stabbing out youreyes Cutting through the spine.Torture, I start to cut,Carving,blood slowly clots,Horrors, mutilations.Axed inthe back Pick through the neck Dead like the rest.Butchered.I setyour corpse on fire to decayin flame.Homicidal desire.Left murdered and nameless,A quivering pile of useless flesh.unburied androtten.Lying there cold after a torturous death.Your life ended fast.your final place you fucking discrace.